happy father’s day to a beautiful alien to this world. i know that you were only ever visiting and that you could not stay for long . i feel my most beautiful when i realize how much i look like you, luckily only moreso the older i get. i wish more than anything that you lived and died in this new world that might see you, the most exquisite and mortally wounded man there ever was. i choose every day to live the life you could never allow yourself to live, i choose to love the parts of me that look like you, the very ones you suffered and could not face. i make a habit of dancing naked to Cream as the sun comes up, i live out loud as i am, and as i learn to truly live, i mourn the life that you kept from yourself. i hope through healing the wounds you gave to me i am healing the wounds you gave to yourself . this is how i love you, still, this is how i help you love me. i cannot wait to see you again, in some other life i will surely find you in. i would know you even if we were cats. maybe especially then. 🫀